rush

threshold

yes it's nearly here or will be and i will too be done with words like freeze and beat and onto words like fern and swoon which are nearly here even though i went over board there with ice and melt but the air forced itself on me this morning and i had to stop from diving into the melt and thaw no matter how cold to open to separate which is why words like chaff and pleat will soon demand my attention

red wing black bird sighting

Undid in the Land of Undone

All the things I wanted to do and didn't

took so long.

It was years of not doing.

You can make an allusion here to Penelope,

if you want.

See her up there in that high room undoing her art?

But enough about what she didn't do --

not doing

was what she did.  Plucking out

the thread of intimacy in the frame.

So let's make a toast to the long art

of lingering. We say the cake is done,

but what exactly did the cake do?

The things undid

in the land of undone call to us

in the flames. What I didn't do took

an eternity--

and it wasn't for lack of trying.

Lee Upton

circle bound

Snow fall/ house bound/ mind stuck -- 

spondaic phrases tromping about in my wintered brain, which is now officially done with snow scenes (we'll see). But the snow has provided time to finish The Sound and the Fury. To think as well about how, in previous readings, Benjy's section grabbed so much of my imagination and memory that I had hardly recalled the obnoxious Jason.  Perhaps there was something new and daring (to the teenage reader at least) about that first narrative, an introduction to the idea of stream of consciousness. Imitation of that style was definitely something I recall attempting. So this is the gift of re-reading. I recall hearing that the great New Yorker magazine writer Joseph Mitchell read Joyce's Ulysses once a year. How much he must have learned returning to that epic annually! An ongoing conversation with the self, with the book's characters and their travels and travails. 

But do you sacrifice reading other books in taking on such a burden? What gets crossed off the list? What book would you read once a year?

eclipse me

ssshhh

from John Cage's

Lecture on Nothing

I am here    ,    and there is nothing to say                 .

            If among you are

those who wish to get somewhere      ,        let them leave at

any moment           .                     What we re-quire                          is

silence                      ;          but what silence requires 

                 is              that I go on talking   .

                                                                           Give any one thought

                        a push                      :         it falls down easily

;             but the pusher         and the pushed         pro-duce            that enter-

tainment                                              called              a dis-cussion                .

                                                               Shall we have one later                      ?

merge

Re-reading The Sound and the Fury and finding the experience haunting. This is the third time. The book seems to rise up at crossroads. As I wind through Faulkner's streams of thought, I encounter the ghosts of old selves, shed like snake skin behind me. I touch the delicate papery self of high school, which nearly disintegrates; rub my thumb across the bookmark of a later, thicker skin.  And the characters too rise up in new shapes. Benjy isn't as compelling. Quentin and Jason too present. I've not yet reached Caddy. The book's power seems diminished. Perhaps that's because the Compsons aren't as exotic as in my younger imagination. I know families like this and sadder now.  So familiar, not diminished. Now, reading this is like looking through a photo album you pull out from time to time.  As opposed to a guidebook to that far off place you'd yet to visit.

Today, to follow my own streaming thoughts, I worked with the fourth graders on poems they're writing, based on a stunning exhibition at the museum where I teach as a visiting writer. We were looking at ways to use verbs and nouns. Later their teacher told me the school's writing curriculum doesn't include lessons on identifying parts of speech. So the kids don't know the names of the words they are using. This makes me sad. How can they use language if they don't know how to name it? 

 

valentine

more jean

from Little Boat

Maria Gravida

Then the gold mother began her touching me

With her long brown face & hands

She tickled me & told me I was beautiful

She held me in the ikon & we gazed

We had a pretty goldfinch   death   salavation

Love was strong as death    Peacocks walked by

Blue immortality       Finches played in black branches

Souls around the cross     It was death in life

Our gold earth gravida

Not a casket but a darkroom for our love

The herma wrought of silver, gilded in fire

Gold mother around me inside me gravida

wash out

Face to Face

In February life stood still.

The birds refused to fly and the soul

grated against the landscape as a boat

chafes against the jetty where it's moored.

The tree were turned away. The snow's depth

measured by the stubble poking through.

The footprints grew old on the ice-crust.

Under tarpaulin, language was being broken down.

Suddenly, something approaches the window.

I stop working and look up.

The colours blaze. Everything turns around.

The earth and I spring at each other.

By Tomas Transtromer

(translated b Robin Robertson)

february

Psalm

Veritas sequitur...

In the small beauty of the forest

The wild deer bedding down --

That they are there!

Their eyes

Effortless, the soft lips

Nuzzle and the alien small teeth

Tear at the grass

The roots of it

Dangle from their mouths

Scattering earth in the strange woods.

They who are there.

Their paths

Nibbled thru the fields, the leaves that shade them

Hang in the distances

of sun

The small nouns

crying faith

In this in which the wild deer

Startle, and stare out.

George Oppen

Edward Hirsch writes that Oppen's epigraph comes from a phrase by Thomas Aquinas, "Veritas sequitur esse rei"-- Truth follows from the being of things.